Dear Isaac,
On this day, one year ago, you were born. It was the most glorious day of my life...knowing you has changed me.
I remember when we got to the hospital in the morning, there was already a little gift there for you... a little stuffed lamb... from Taylor and Lenny. We got settled in what would be our room for the day, and nurse Kathy got mommy all hooked up to a bunch of machines and things. One of those machines let us hear your heartbeat. When Mom-Mom, Grandpa Jim, Aunt Kate and Uncle Tim, Pop Pop and Grandma Mia, Grammy and Grandpa Jack all came back to see us before you were born, they could hear your heart beating, too. Some doctors came in to take one last look at you on the ultrasound machine so that they could figure out the best way to get you out of my tummy safely. It was neat to see you in there one last time. Pastor Guy and Pastor Rob came back and prayed with us and they prayed for you... knowing that it's never too late for God to perform a miracle and to heal your sweet little body.
Then, we went to the operating room where you would be born. You were born at 8:33am; and while God did heal your body like we prayed He would, I know I met a miracle that day-- you.
You are the most beautiful baby I have ever seen... your fuzzy hair, your perfect little nose, and cute lips just like daddy's. Daddy and I are so thankful that we got to meet you while you were still alive so that you could feel us hug you and kiss your little face, and so you could clearly hear us tell you how much we love you and how proud we are of you. We do... and we are.
After you were born, nurse Kathy helped us give you a bath an put on the blue little outfit we got for you. Then, you got to meet everyone!! Your grandparents, your aunts and uncles, and some of mommy and daddy's closest friends who also love you very much. We're so glad that they all got to meet you and hold you. You are just precious.
Isaac, do you know that you have changed the world? That your life has impacted many, many people for Jesus? Do you know that there are people who didn't want to go to church who are now going back because of hearing about your life? That over one hundred people played in your golf tournament? That there are people who spend more time with their family, who hug their children a little bit tighter because of you? I am so proud to be your mommy... and I am so thankful that God has chosen to use you in a mighty way.
We miss you so much. We wish that you were here, just learning to walk, babbling out sounds like "dadada" and "mamama", and devouring your first taste of cake. Mommy and daddy know, though, that you are perfectly cared for in heaven... that you are healthy and whole, and that you have everything you need. We are thankful for that; but we still miss you. Deeply.
I love you, Isaac. I am so proud of you. Happy birthday, sweet boy.
Love,
Mommy
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Thursday, December 25, 2008
December 25, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Today is Christmas... but you already know that because you are celebrating with Jesus himself.
Yet, Mommy and Daddy wish so much that you were here. We miss you Isaac... we miss your sweet little face, your soft cheeks, your fuzzy hair, your cute nose, the way it felt to hold you and snuggle with you. We were looking forward to much to getting to celebrate Christmas... and Easter... and you brithday... all for years to come.
For some reason, God decided it was better this way... better for you to be with us for 9 months and 16 minutes than for the long, long time Daddy and I would have liked, and prayed so hard for. For you, it is better. As your Mom, I would like to think that it would be better for you to be here with us; but you are in the better place. For me and Daddy... well, it seems like it would be better for us if you were here; we just miss you so terribly.
There's not a day that I don't think of you, miss you, long for you... you are so precious to us, Isaac. And even though you're not physically here this Christmas, and you won't ever be, you'll always be in our hearts; you will always be remembered; and you'll always be loved.
I love you, sweet Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Today is Christmas... but you already know that because you are celebrating with Jesus himself.
Yet, Mommy and Daddy wish so much that you were here. We miss you Isaac... we miss your sweet little face, your soft cheeks, your fuzzy hair, your cute nose, the way it felt to hold you and snuggle with you. We were looking forward to much to getting to celebrate Christmas... and Easter... and you brithday... all for years to come.
For some reason, God decided it was better this way... better for you to be with us for 9 months and 16 minutes than for the long, long time Daddy and I would have liked, and prayed so hard for. For you, it is better. As your Mom, I would like to think that it would be better for you to be here with us; but you are in the better place. For me and Daddy... well, it seems like it would be better for us if you were here; we just miss you so terribly.
There's not a day that I don't think of you, miss you, long for you... you are so precious to us, Isaac. And even though you're not physically here this Christmas, and you won't ever be, you'll always be in our hearts; you will always be remembered; and you'll always be loved.
I love you, sweet Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
December 10, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Mommy is missing you so much today. There are so many things that I would love to show you, tell you, do with you...
I know it's not you who is suffering; you are in the most perfect place. But Daddy and I are... we are here without you and we miss you terribly.
I love you so much, sweet Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Mommy is missing you so much today. There are so many things that I would love to show you, tell you, do with you...
I know it's not you who is suffering; you are in the most perfect place. But Daddy and I are... we are here without you and we miss you terribly.
I love you so much, sweet Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Saturday, October 18, 2008
October 18, 2008
Dear Isaac,
I don’t know how to put into one letter everything I would want to tell you in a lifetime… but I want to try because Daddy and I love you so much. We are so proud of you.
From the moment we found out about you, Daddy and I were so excited to meet you. As you grew, I could feel all of your kicks and wiggles, especially when I would drink a fizzy Zazz or eat something sweet. I remember the first time Daddy could feel you kick, too. As you grew, I would feel you move in new places, and that made me so happy because I knew that you were growing and were full of life. I loved it. Some of the doctors we met with suggested that we let you go; but that was never an option for us. You are our child. We have loved you from the moment we found out about you, and wanted nothing more than to be your Mommy and Daddy and to shower you with as much love as one could possibly give in a lifetime.
I remember the day that Daddy and I chose on a name for you… Isaac Timothy. We chose the name Isaac for two reasons; first, because of the story of Abraham and Isaac in the Bible, and feeling as though we were being asked to take a large step of faith in entrusting you into God’s care; and secondly because Isaac means “he will laugh.” We both just loved the thought of you laughing with joy. We chose Timothy as your middle name because Timothy means “to honor God.” We knew that your life would be honoring to God, and we wanted your name to reflect that. The night we chose your name, Daddy made up a name certificate and we prayed as we named you… we couldn’t wait to tell people your name so that they could pray for you, too, and start to get to know you even more. We loved naming you because at that point, you became even more personal and we felt even more connected to you as your Mommy and Daddy.
While you were still in my tummy, every morning I would sit and write you a letter while playing you music. You really liked when I played Wonderful, Merciful Savior and How Deep the Father’s Love for Us. After the letter was finished, I would read it to you. On my way to work each morning, I would talk to you, telling you about the colors in the morning sky, or simply just how much I love you and how proud I am of you and to be your Mommy. Every night, Daddy would say good night to you… he told you how much he loves you and how proud he is of you, too. We wanted so much for you to hear our voices and know that it was your Mommy and Daddy who love you, Isaac. I hope that you heard us, and that in hearing us, you just felt so deeply loved.
Did you know that while you were in my tummy we took you all sorts of places? We went hiking at Sugarloaf Mountain and walked through the tree-lined path. On the Fourth of July we watched fireworks and listened to their big, loud “booms.” We took you to the beach and jumped waves with you in the ocean. You and I even sat on the beach in the early mornings and I would tell you all about the beautiful sunrise and the sounds the seagulls made. Over the summer after a big thunderstorm we would often see a rainbow; I wished so much that you could have seen them, too. I told you all about the beautiful colors and the way each one would stretch across the sky. Towards the end of the summer we went golfing with Daddy, and I know he was excited to share that with you. We went to weddings, and football games, on picnics, and to so many other places; yet there are still so many things Daddy and I would have loved to do with you. We just weren’t finished making memories with you yet.
October 7th was the greatest day of our lives. You were born at 8:33am; you weighed 4 pounds, 12 ounces, and were 17 ½ inches long. Not only did your body have weight, but your life has weight, and significance, and you matter. You still matter, sweet Isaac. You matter to the One who so uniquely created you. You matter to the people whose lives you have touched and who you have brought closer to Jesus. You matter to me and to Daddy; you will always be our first child and our son. We are so proud of you because you…your life… has made a such a difference, especially to us. The sixteen minutes you were with us were the sweetest sixteen minutes of our lives; and I am thankful to have had that time to whisper in your ear over and over again how much I love you… to have kissed your little nose and sweet cheeks, held your hand with all your perfect little fingers, and then to hold you for hours afterwards, just studying all of your perfect little features and seeing how beautiful you are.
Isaac, we miss you so much. My arms are heavy and ache with the emptiness of not being able to hold you and snuggle with you anymore. But, we are so thankful to have had the chance to meet you… to look at you and just take you all in; to look at your cute nose and realize it’s just like mine; to see how your toes are just like Daddy’s; to look at the details of your little hands and feet, and to be captivated by the beauty of who you are. You are the greatest miracle I have ever been a part of, sweet Isaac. We loved being able to kiss your soft little cheeks and little button nose, and to tell you over and over again how much we love you and how proud we are to be your Mommy and Daddy. We hope that you heard us every time we told you we love you, that you felt every squeeze, and hug, and kiss we gave you, and that we somehow managed to give you all the love of a lifetime in the time we had with you. The sixteen minutes we were able to share with you were the sweetest sixteen minutes of our lives.
We know that Heaven is the best place to be, and we long for the day when we will get to see you again. Please know that you hold the most special place in our hearts, and that we will never stop loving you.
Love,Mommy and Daddy
I don’t know how to put into one letter everything I would want to tell you in a lifetime… but I want to try because Daddy and I love you so much. We are so proud of you.
From the moment we found out about you, Daddy and I were so excited to meet you. As you grew, I could feel all of your kicks and wiggles, especially when I would drink a fizzy Zazz or eat something sweet. I remember the first time Daddy could feel you kick, too. As you grew, I would feel you move in new places, and that made me so happy because I knew that you were growing and were full of life. I loved it. Some of the doctors we met with suggested that we let you go; but that was never an option for us. You are our child. We have loved you from the moment we found out about you, and wanted nothing more than to be your Mommy and Daddy and to shower you with as much love as one could possibly give in a lifetime.
I remember the day that Daddy and I chose on a name for you… Isaac Timothy. We chose the name Isaac for two reasons; first, because of the story of Abraham and Isaac in the Bible, and feeling as though we were being asked to take a large step of faith in entrusting you into God’s care; and secondly because Isaac means “he will laugh.” We both just loved the thought of you laughing with joy. We chose Timothy as your middle name because Timothy means “to honor God.” We knew that your life would be honoring to God, and we wanted your name to reflect that. The night we chose your name, Daddy made up a name certificate and we prayed as we named you… we couldn’t wait to tell people your name so that they could pray for you, too, and start to get to know you even more. We loved naming you because at that point, you became even more personal and we felt even more connected to you as your Mommy and Daddy.
While you were still in my tummy, every morning I would sit and write you a letter while playing you music. You really liked when I played Wonderful, Merciful Savior and How Deep the Father’s Love for Us. After the letter was finished, I would read it to you. On my way to work each morning, I would talk to you, telling you about the colors in the morning sky, or simply just how much I love you and how proud I am of you and to be your Mommy. Every night, Daddy would say good night to you… he told you how much he loves you and how proud he is of you, too. We wanted so much for you to hear our voices and know that it was your Mommy and Daddy who love you, Isaac. I hope that you heard us, and that in hearing us, you just felt so deeply loved.
Did you know that while you were in my tummy we took you all sorts of places? We went hiking at Sugarloaf Mountain and walked through the tree-lined path. On the Fourth of July we watched fireworks and listened to their big, loud “booms.” We took you to the beach and jumped waves with you in the ocean. You and I even sat on the beach in the early mornings and I would tell you all about the beautiful sunrise and the sounds the seagulls made. Over the summer after a big thunderstorm we would often see a rainbow; I wished so much that you could have seen them, too. I told you all about the beautiful colors and the way each one would stretch across the sky. Towards the end of the summer we went golfing with Daddy, and I know he was excited to share that with you. We went to weddings, and football games, on picnics, and to so many other places; yet there are still so many things Daddy and I would have loved to do with you. We just weren’t finished making memories with you yet.
October 7th was the greatest day of our lives. You were born at 8:33am; you weighed 4 pounds, 12 ounces, and were 17 ½ inches long. Not only did your body have weight, but your life has weight, and significance, and you matter. You still matter, sweet Isaac. You matter to the One who so uniquely created you. You matter to the people whose lives you have touched and who you have brought closer to Jesus. You matter to me and to Daddy; you will always be our first child and our son. We are so proud of you because you…your life… has made a such a difference, especially to us. The sixteen minutes you were with us were the sweetest sixteen minutes of our lives; and I am thankful to have had that time to whisper in your ear over and over again how much I love you… to have kissed your little nose and sweet cheeks, held your hand with all your perfect little fingers, and then to hold you for hours afterwards, just studying all of your perfect little features and seeing how beautiful you are.
Isaac, we miss you so much. My arms are heavy and ache with the emptiness of not being able to hold you and snuggle with you anymore. But, we are so thankful to have had the chance to meet you… to look at you and just take you all in; to look at your cute nose and realize it’s just like mine; to see how your toes are just like Daddy’s; to look at the details of your little hands and feet, and to be captivated by the beauty of who you are. You are the greatest miracle I have ever been a part of, sweet Isaac. We loved being able to kiss your soft little cheeks and little button nose, and to tell you over and over again how much we love you and how proud we are to be your Mommy and Daddy. We hope that you heard us every time we told you we love you, that you felt every squeeze, and hug, and kiss we gave you, and that we somehow managed to give you all the love of a lifetime in the time we had with you. The sixteen minutes we were able to share with you were the sweetest sixteen minutes of our lives.
We know that Heaven is the best place to be, and we long for the day when we will get to see you again. Please know that you hold the most special place in our hearts, and that we will never stop loving you.
Love,Mommy and Daddy
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
October 7, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Today is your birthday. It's 4:08 am, and in about 5 hours from now, Daddy and I will get to meet you! Right now I am sitting here, playing you some music (the songs you seem to like best) and feeling you wiggle. I wish I could sit here for a while longer.
Yesterday Daddy and I didn't do very much. We both just wanted to be home and be with you. I had to go to the hospital for them to take some blood, and then we went out to lunch for pizza. I ate a late dinner since it was the last meal I could eat. I wanted to make sure your last meal while you're in my tummy was good... so I had chicken pot pie and of course, a Zazz. For dessert, I had chocolate chip cookies and milk.
I don't know what to expect today; I know that Daddy and are looking forward to meeting you, holding you, kissing your face, and just giving you all the love we possible can. Mom Mom and Grandpa Jim, Pop Pop and Grandma Mia, Grammy and Grandpa Jack, Grandad, Aunt Kate and Uncle Tim, Uncle Pearce, Aunt Jolene, Aunt Melinda, and our small group friends will be there to meet you, too. I know each one of them is looking forward to meeting you, too, and just giving you all the love they can.
I know that the day you meet your child is supposed to be filled with nothing but joy; and Daddy and I are joyful. And we're both also hoping and praying so much, even now, that God will heal your little body on this side of heaven so you can be with us for a while. If not, then today you will get to meet Jesus, and be with Him in Heaven... and I know that's the best place you could be. I guess Mommy is just a bit selfish and doesn't want to have to possibly let you go.
I am so proud of you.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Today is your birthday. It's 4:08 am, and in about 5 hours from now, Daddy and I will get to meet you! Right now I am sitting here, playing you some music (the songs you seem to like best) and feeling you wiggle. I wish I could sit here for a while longer.
Yesterday Daddy and I didn't do very much. We both just wanted to be home and be with you. I had to go to the hospital for them to take some blood, and then we went out to lunch for pizza. I ate a late dinner since it was the last meal I could eat. I wanted to make sure your last meal while you're in my tummy was good... so I had chicken pot pie and of course, a Zazz. For dessert, I had chocolate chip cookies and milk.
I don't know what to expect today; I know that Daddy and are looking forward to meeting you, holding you, kissing your face, and just giving you all the love we possible can. Mom Mom and Grandpa Jim, Pop Pop and Grandma Mia, Grammy and Grandpa Jack, Grandad, Aunt Kate and Uncle Tim, Uncle Pearce, Aunt Jolene, Aunt Melinda, and our small group friends will be there to meet you, too. I know each one of them is looking forward to meeting you, too, and just giving you all the love they can.
I know that the day you meet your child is supposed to be filled with nothing but joy; and Daddy and I are joyful. And we're both also hoping and praying so much, even now, that God will heal your little body on this side of heaven so you can be with us for a while. If not, then today you will get to meet Jesus, and be with Him in Heaven... and I know that's the best place you could be. I guess Mommy is just a bit selfish and doesn't want to have to possibly let you go.
I am so proud of you.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Monday, October 6, 2008
October 6, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Do you know how proud I am of you?
I am so proud of the way that over and over again I have been told by people, some of whom I know and others that Daddy and I have never met, that you have had an enormous impact on their lives... how you have helped to restore their faith in God and have brought them closer to Jesus. And you have certainly done that for me and for Daddy. I am so proud of you.
I can't believe that tomorrow is your birthday. It seems like it has gotten here so quickly. Last night our small group friends came over to pray for us. They prayed for all kinds of things... for time together as a family, for you to not be in any pain when you're born, and for a miracle. I really am excited to meet you tomorrow... to hold you, to kiss your little face, and to try to somehow take all the love I would ever want to show you in a lifetime and give it to you all at once.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Do you know how proud I am of you?
I am so proud of the way that over and over again I have been told by people, some of whom I know and others that Daddy and I have never met, that you have had an enormous impact on their lives... how you have helped to restore their faith in God and have brought them closer to Jesus. And you have certainly done that for me and for Daddy. I am so proud of you.
I can't believe that tomorrow is your birthday. It seems like it has gotten here so quickly. Last night our small group friends came over to pray for us. They prayed for all kinds of things... for time together as a family, for you to not be in any pain when you're born, and for a miracle. I really am excited to meet you tomorrow... to hold you, to kiss your little face, and to try to somehow take all the love I would ever want to show you in a lifetime and give it to you all at once.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Sunday, October 5, 2008
October 5, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Yesterday Daddy and I had a nice day just being with you. We had a pretty lazy morning, which was okay because as you know, I love laying around and just feeling you kick.
For lunch, we decided to go on a picnic. There was a park that Daddy remembered seeing and it took us a little while to find it; but once we got there it was so nice. We sat at a picnic table right near the river. It was sunny and warm, but not hot; there was a gentle breeze that rustles through the trees, and the river gently moved along over the rocks. I was so glad to be able to take you on your first picnic.
I can't believe your birthday will be here in two days... that this time on Tuesday, they will be getting things ready at the hospital for Daddy and I to meet you. Like I told you before, I am very excited to meet you, to look in your eyes, to run my hands over your soft hair, and kiss your sweet face. My heart hurts, though, too, because I don't know how long Daddy and I will get to keep you. I just love you so much... even from the moment we found out about you, I have just loved you. I just want you to know that if there was any way to make things better, I would... I would do anything. But really it's up to God, and so we keep praying and we keep asking Him. And we know that if His choice is to have you go home with Him, that you're in the safest and most loving hands you could be. I just wish you'd get to be in our hands for a while.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Yesterday Daddy and I had a nice day just being with you. We had a pretty lazy morning, which was okay because as you know, I love laying around and just feeling you kick.
For lunch, we decided to go on a picnic. There was a park that Daddy remembered seeing and it took us a little while to find it; but once we got there it was so nice. We sat at a picnic table right near the river. It was sunny and warm, but not hot; there was a gentle breeze that rustles through the trees, and the river gently moved along over the rocks. I was so glad to be able to take you on your first picnic.
I can't believe your birthday will be here in two days... that this time on Tuesday, they will be getting things ready at the hospital for Daddy and I to meet you. Like I told you before, I am very excited to meet you, to look in your eyes, to run my hands over your soft hair, and kiss your sweet face. My heart hurts, though, too, because I don't know how long Daddy and I will get to keep you. I just love you so much... even from the moment we found out about you, I have just loved you. I just want you to know that if there was any way to make things better, I would... I would do anything. But really it's up to God, and so we keep praying and we keep asking Him. And we know that if His choice is to have you go home with Him, that you're in the safest and most loving hands you could be. I just wish you'd get to be in our hands for a while.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Saturday, October 4, 2008
October 4, 2008
Dear Isaac,
I am so thankful to have had the day to spend with you yesterday. To most people, it would appear as if I did nothing all day. I didn't get to the laundry that needs to be done, I didn't cook a single meal... but I got to lay on the couch and just be with you. I loved it.
When Daddy came home we met with Pastor Guy for a little bit. He is going to be at the hospital on Tuesday when you are born to pray with us and to pray for you. So many people are praying for your Isaac... for God to heal your precious little body, for you to not be in any pain or discomfort when you are born, and people are even thanking God for the impact that your sweet life has had on them.
Last night Daddy and I went to a football game. We were excited to take you to a real one and not just watch one on t.v. I think you liked the marching band best, especially the drum line! Daddy's good friend, Dave, is the coach of one of the teams, and I know Daddy was glad that Dave's team not only one, but that Dave got to "meet" you and pat my tummy to say hello. We were both so glad that you were able to go to your first football game.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
I am so thankful to have had the day to spend with you yesterday. To most people, it would appear as if I did nothing all day. I didn't get to the laundry that needs to be done, I didn't cook a single meal... but I got to lay on the couch and just be with you. I loved it.
When Daddy came home we met with Pastor Guy for a little bit. He is going to be at the hospital on Tuesday when you are born to pray with us and to pray for you. So many people are praying for your Isaac... for God to heal your precious little body, for you to not be in any pain or discomfort when you are born, and people are even thanking God for the impact that your sweet life has had on them.
Last night Daddy and I went to a football game. We were excited to take you to a real one and not just watch one on t.v. I think you liked the marching band best, especially the drum line! Daddy's good friend, Dave, is the coach of one of the teams, and I know Daddy was glad that Dave's team not only one, but that Dave got to "meet" you and pat my tummy to say hello. We were both so glad that you were able to go to your first football game.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Friday, October 3, 2008
October 3, 2008
Dear Isaac,
I am very glad that I am finished working for a while. All I really want to do is lay here and be with you.
Yesterday Daddy and I got to see you on the ultrasound machine. We had the nice ultrasound lady who always gets good pictures of you. You turned your head for us and she got some great pictures of your sweet little face! In this first one I can't believe how much you've grown...
This one isn't very clear, but you were eating your fist. You kept putting the whole thing in your mouth... it was really cute!
In this one, you can see your nose clearly. You definitely have Mommy's nose!
In this last one, you're making a fishy face. Some people told me you look like you're getting ready to give us a big kiss!
It was a treasure to be able to get these pictures. Daddy and I just kept looking at them over and over. I can't wait to just kiss your cute little cheeks and be with you on Tuesday... and I pray that I get to be with you on Wednesday, and Thursday... and Friday... and for a really long time.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
I am very glad that I am finished working for a while. All I really want to do is lay here and be with you.
Yesterday Daddy and I got to see you on the ultrasound machine. We had the nice ultrasound lady who always gets good pictures of you. You turned your head for us and she got some great pictures of your sweet little face! In this first one I can't believe how much you've grown...
This one isn't very clear, but you were eating your fist. You kept putting the whole thing in your mouth... it was really cute!
In this one, you can see your nose clearly. You definitely have Mommy's nose!
In this last one, you're making a fishy face. Some people told me you look like you're getting ready to give us a big kiss!
It was a treasure to be able to get these pictures. Daddy and I just kept looking at them over and over. I can't wait to just kiss your cute little cheeks and be with you on Tuesday... and I pray that I get to be with you on Wednesday, and Thursday... and Friday... and for a really long time.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Thursday, October 2, 2008
October 2, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Today is Pop Pop's birthday. It's a big birthday, too... he turns 60! I realized yesterday that your birthday will be right in the middle of his and Missy's.
Today is also special because Daddy and I will get to see you on the ultrasound machine again. I really hope you turn your head for us this time so we can get a good shot of your face. I am also hoping the ultrasound lady will be able to get a picture that shows how much hair you have!
I can't believe your birthday is 5 days away. I am so excited to meet you, and I know Daddy is, too. I am looking forward to figuring out whose nose you have and if your little ears are more like mine or more like Daddy's. It's a hard thing, though, because your future with us here is just so uncertain; we want so much for you to be healthy and to be able to keep you with us for a while. We, along with many, many people, keep begging God to allow that to happen. We just don't know. One thing that is certain, though, is that if you're not with us, you'll be with Jesus. And that brings Daddy and I comfort.
I just love you so much, Isaac... it's just something I can't describe. I would do anything to protect you, make you feel better, and to keep you here; but there's nothing to do but pray. And so we do. All the time.
I love you, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Today is Pop Pop's birthday. It's a big birthday, too... he turns 60! I realized yesterday that your birthday will be right in the middle of his and Missy's.
Today is also special because Daddy and I will get to see you on the ultrasound machine again. I really hope you turn your head for us this time so we can get a good shot of your face. I am also hoping the ultrasound lady will be able to get a picture that shows how much hair you have!
I can't believe your birthday is 5 days away. I am so excited to meet you, and I know Daddy is, too. I am looking forward to figuring out whose nose you have and if your little ears are more like mine or more like Daddy's. It's a hard thing, though, because your future with us here is just so uncertain; we want so much for you to be healthy and to be able to keep you with us for a while. We, along with many, many people, keep begging God to allow that to happen. We just don't know. One thing that is certain, though, is that if you're not with us, you'll be with Jesus. And that brings Daddy and I comfort.
I just love you so much, Isaac... it's just something I can't describe. I would do anything to protect you, make you feel better, and to keep you here; but there's nothing to do but pray. And so we do. All the time.
I love you, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
October 1, 2008
Dear Isaac,
It was weird for Mommy to write "October" as the date for my letter to you today because this is the month in which you will be born. Pop Pop and my cousin Missy are born in October, too. In fact, Pop Pop's birthday is tomorrow.
Yesterday was a day off of school for Daddy and me. We both had to go to the dentist, which neither of us like very much, and then we went to see the doctor. This time the visit was short. I told her that I am still having some of those contractions, despite the medicine, and she wants me to make sure I am resting a lto when I am at home. That's no problem for me... I really like resting and just having my hands in my tummy. I just hope when those contractions come you're still comfortable in there. I would never want you to be in any discomfort.
Last night Daddy worked on his school work until pretty late. When he came upstairs, he said good night to you. He would say something to you, then wait to see if you'd give him a little kick. Each time, you did! He told me he thought it was so sweet that you do that. I know he loves it when you do.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
It was weird for Mommy to write "October" as the date for my letter to you today because this is the month in which you will be born. Pop Pop and my cousin Missy are born in October, too. In fact, Pop Pop's birthday is tomorrow.
Yesterday was a day off of school for Daddy and me. We both had to go to the dentist, which neither of us like very much, and then we went to see the doctor. This time the visit was short. I told her that I am still having some of those contractions, despite the medicine, and she wants me to make sure I am resting a lto when I am at home. That's no problem for me... I really like resting and just having my hands in my tummy. I just hope when those contractions come you're still comfortable in there. I would never want you to be in any discomfort.
Last night Daddy worked on his school work until pretty late. When he came upstairs, he said good night to you. He would say something to you, then wait to see if you'd give him a little kick. Each time, you did! He told me he thought it was so sweet that you do that. I know he loves it when you do.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
September 30, 2008
Dear Isaac,
I am glad that I don't have to go to work today. Mommy and Daddy were up very late watching the Ravens football game. It was a close one... it even went into overtime! Unfortunately, the Ravens lost; but, Daddy and I enjoyed watching the game. For a while, Daddy sat with me with his hands on my tummy telling you all about it, tapping my tummy, and feeling your kicks. He is such a good Daddy, and he loves you so much.
Today Mommy and Daddy have some appointments to go to and errands to run. One place we have to go is to the doctor's office. This is the last time we will see the doctor until your birthday. When we were there last week, she told us how beautiful you are going to be. She's right. I can't wait to see your sweet face, your head full of hair, your hands and your feet... maybe you'll even give us a thumbs up in person!
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
I am glad that I don't have to go to work today. Mommy and Daddy were up very late watching the Ravens football game. It was a close one... it even went into overtime! Unfortunately, the Ravens lost; but, Daddy and I enjoyed watching the game. For a while, Daddy sat with me with his hands on my tummy telling you all about it, tapping my tummy, and feeling your kicks. He is such a good Daddy, and he loves you so much.
Today Mommy and Daddy have some appointments to go to and errands to run. One place we have to go is to the doctor's office. This is the last time we will see the doctor until your birthday. When we were there last week, she told us how beautiful you are going to be. She's right. I can't wait to see your sweet face, your head full of hair, your hands and your feet... maybe you'll even give us a thumbs up in person!
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Monday, September 29, 2008
September 29, 2008
Dear Isaac,
The entire church prayed for you yesterday. Pastor Guy had Daddy and I come down front, and he told everyone about you. I was so proud to stand up there as your Mommy, but was also very sad as he shared the news the doctors have told us. The elders from the church came up, too, and layed hands on Daddy and I as everyone prayed. I know many, many people have been touched by your life and are praying for you, Isaac.
We came home and watched some football. Daddy was very glad that the Jets won. They scored a lot of points against the other team. Oh, how I wish I knew that we'd be able to watch season after season after season of football games with you. I know how much Daddy would love that... how much he would love to get you your own Jets jersey and teach you to throw a football.
Your birthday is coming up very soon. Lots of people are going to be there to meet you and to tell you how much they love you. I can't wait to hold you and kiss you; but I really like knowing that you're safe in my tummy. You were up very early this morning wiggling around and I loved just laying there for an hour before getting up, feeling you move all around. I am going to miss that.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
The entire church prayed for you yesterday. Pastor Guy had Daddy and I come down front, and he told everyone about you. I was so proud to stand up there as your Mommy, but was also very sad as he shared the news the doctors have told us. The elders from the church came up, too, and layed hands on Daddy and I as everyone prayed. I know many, many people have been touched by your life and are praying for you, Isaac.
We came home and watched some football. Daddy was very glad that the Jets won. They scored a lot of points against the other team. Oh, how I wish I knew that we'd be able to watch season after season after season of football games with you. I know how much Daddy would love that... how much he would love to get you your own Jets jersey and teach you to throw a football.
Your birthday is coming up very soon. Lots of people are going to be there to meet you and to tell you how much they love you. I can't wait to hold you and kiss you; but I really like knowing that you're safe in my tummy. You were up very early this morning wiggling around and I loved just laying there for an hour before getting up, feeling you move all around. I am going to miss that.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Sunday, September 28, 2008
September 28, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Yesterday we got to visit with Pop-Pop and Gandma Mia. Pop-Pop's birthday is coming up this week, and Daddy and I wanted to take him out for a special dinner. We had some wonderful Italian food at a very nice restaurant near Pop-Pop's house. Mommy had a big plate of lasagna, but I couldn't eat much of it. You are getting so big in there, and I think my stomach is a bit squished! That's okay, though. I am never hungry, and would rather know that you're growing and getting stronger. You gave us some really strong kicks again last night... sometimes your kicks are so hard I think you're going to kick right through my tummy! I love those because you will sometimes leave your little foot out there for a little while and when I touch my tummy, I can feel it. It makes me feel a little bit closer to you.
Today Daddy and I are going to church, and Pastor Guy is going to have everyone there pray for you. So many people already are, Isaac... people begging God to heal you, people praying that you won't feel any pain when you're born, and people thanking God so much for the impact that your life has had.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Yesterday we got to visit with Pop-Pop and Gandma Mia. Pop-Pop's birthday is coming up this week, and Daddy and I wanted to take him out for a special dinner. We had some wonderful Italian food at a very nice restaurant near Pop-Pop's house. Mommy had a big plate of lasagna, but I couldn't eat much of it. You are getting so big in there, and I think my stomach is a bit squished! That's okay, though. I am never hungry, and would rather know that you're growing and getting stronger. You gave us some really strong kicks again last night... sometimes your kicks are so hard I think you're going to kick right through my tummy! I love those because you will sometimes leave your little foot out there for a little while and when I touch my tummy, I can feel it. It makes me feel a little bit closer to you.
Today Daddy and I are going to church, and Pastor Guy is going to have everyone there pray for you. So many people already are, Isaac... people begging God to heal you, people praying that you won't feel any pain when you're born, and people thanking God so much for the impact that your life has had.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Saturday, September 27, 2008
September 27, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Daddy and I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. The nurse found your heartbeat right away, and it was perfect. You are continuing to grow, because each time they weigh Mommy, I weigh little bit more. The doctor felt all around on my tummy and could feel right where your head and sweet little feet are. She is the one who will be performing my c-section, and she made sure to tell us how beautiful you are going to be when you're born. I told her how the other doctors have said that you have a lot of hair, and she chuckled. I told her that I am excited to see it and to meet you.
You continue to kick up a storm. You gave Daddy and I a few really big kicks while we were watching the Presidential debate last night. My whole tummy shook!! I love knowing that you are getting stronger and that you are so alive in there.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Daddy and I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. The nurse found your heartbeat right away, and it was perfect. You are continuing to grow, because each time they weigh Mommy, I weigh little bit more. The doctor felt all around on my tummy and could feel right where your head and sweet little feet are. She is the one who will be performing my c-section, and she made sure to tell us how beautiful you are going to be when you're born. I told her how the other doctors have said that you have a lot of hair, and she chuckled. I told her that I am excited to see it and to meet you.
You continue to kick up a storm. You gave Daddy and I a few really big kicks while we were watching the Presidential debate last night. My whole tummy shook!! I love knowing that you are getting stronger and that you are so alive in there.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Friday, September 26, 2008
September 26, 2008
Dear Isaac,
I am so proud of you. Over the last few days I have been told by so many people, either in talking with them or through notes they have written me, about how you have changed their lives. They have been telling me how you have left an impression on their hearts, how they have been praying for you, and how you have brought them closer to Jesus and restored their faith in God. Daddy and I have talked about hwo it is important to us that our children have an impact in this world; you already have in so many ways. I am so proud to be your Mommy, and am so, so proud of you.
I am glad that it is Friday and that we'll have the weekend to spend just relaxing and being able to enjoy you. I know Daddy is looking forward to watching more football and telling you about it; I am looking forward to just getting to feel you kick and wiggle.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
I am so proud of you. Over the last few days I have been told by so many people, either in talking with them or through notes they have written me, about how you have changed their lives. They have been telling me how you have left an impression on their hearts, how they have been praying for you, and how you have brought them closer to Jesus and restored their faith in God. Daddy and I have talked about hwo it is important to us that our children have an impact in this world; you already have in so many ways. I am so proud to be your Mommy, and am so, so proud of you.
I am glad that it is Friday and that we'll have the weekend to spend just relaxing and being able to enjoy you. I know Daddy is looking forward to watching more football and telling you about it; I am looking forward to just getting to feel you kick and wiggle.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Thursday, September 25, 2008
September 25, 2008
Dear Isaac,
This morning I am playing you a song called "Come Thou Fount." It's an older hymn, but many people have redone it more recently. The person singing this version is Mark Schultz, one of my favorites. He has a wonderful voice, and the piano and violins in the background are beautiful. This is another one of Mommy's favorites that we sing in church.
Yesterday was a hard day for Mommy. It has been very hard knowing that our time with you is getting to be very short. I am so excited to meet you, but I am so sad that that may also mean that I have to give you up. I don't want to. I want to know that you'll be here for a long while with us. I want to listen to you make sweet baby noises, read to you at bed time, teach you how to walk and ride a bike, and watch you grow up. I know that if you're not with us you'll be in a much safer, better, and more perfect place because you'll be in heaven with Jesus. I just love you so much and want so badly to have the chance for you to be with us for a while first.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
This morning I am playing you a song called "Come Thou Fount." It's an older hymn, but many people have redone it more recently. The person singing this version is Mark Schultz, one of my favorites. He has a wonderful voice, and the piano and violins in the background are beautiful. This is another one of Mommy's favorites that we sing in church.
Yesterday was a hard day for Mommy. It has been very hard knowing that our time with you is getting to be very short. I am so excited to meet you, but I am so sad that that may also mean that I have to give you up. I don't want to. I want to know that you'll be here for a long while with us. I want to listen to you make sweet baby noises, read to you at bed time, teach you how to walk and ride a bike, and watch you grow up. I know that if you're not with us you'll be in a much safer, better, and more perfect place because you'll be in heaven with Jesus. I just love you so much and want so badly to have the chance for you to be with us for a while first.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
September 24, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Daddy played some golf yesterday. It was beautiful weather, and I am so glad he had the chance to get out there. Afterwards, we went out for cheeseburgers and milkshakes. I think you really liked the chocolate milkshake I had!Daddy also talked to you for a while yesterday. You wiggled around a bunch when you heard his voice... we both love it when you do that.
This morning I am playing you "How Deep the Father's Love for Us" which is another song we sing at church. It's a beautiful song about God's deep love for us... so deep that he even sent His son to the cross to die for us. You seem to like this song too. There's the pretty sound of the piano, just like some of the other songs I play for you.
Love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Daddy played some golf yesterday. It was beautiful weather, and I am so glad he had the chance to get out there. Afterwards, we went out for cheeseburgers and milkshakes. I think you really liked the chocolate milkshake I had!Daddy also talked to you for a while yesterday. You wiggled around a bunch when you heard his voice... we both love it when you do that.
This morning I am playing you "How Deep the Father's Love for Us" which is another song we sing at church. It's a beautiful song about God's deep love for us... so deep that he even sent His son to the cross to die for us. You seem to like this song too. There's the pretty sound of the piano, just like some of the other songs I play for you.
Love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
September 23, 3008
Dear Isaac,
The Jets didn't play too well last night. Daddy wasn't very happy about that because he was really looking forward to their game. I know he was glad, though, that we got to watch it together as a family... at least the first half anyway.
This morning I have been sitting here playing the song "Wonderful, Merciful, Savior" to you. It's one of my favorite songs that we sing at church. It seems like you really like the sound of the piano and of the people singing. I like to play this one for you a lot because of how beautiful it is.
I can't believe that your birthday is going to be here in two weeks. Mommy has very mixed feelings about that. I am so excited to be able to meet you and see those little legs and arms that have been poking and kicking me. But I am also very scared because I know that you're safe in my tummy and I don't want you to be in a place where you aren't safe. You are so precious to Mommy and Daddy.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
The Jets didn't play too well last night. Daddy wasn't very happy about that because he was really looking forward to their game. I know he was glad, though, that we got to watch it together as a family... at least the first half anyway.
This morning I have been sitting here playing the song "Wonderful, Merciful, Savior" to you. It's one of my favorite songs that we sing at church. It seems like you really like the sound of the piano and of the people singing. I like to play this one for you a lot because of how beautiful it is.
I can't believe that your birthday is going to be here in two weeks. Mommy has very mixed feelings about that. I am so excited to be able to meet you and see those little legs and arms that have been poking and kicking me. But I am also very scared because I know that you're safe in my tummy and I don't want you to be in a place where you aren't safe. You are so precious to Mommy and Daddy.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Monday, September 22, 2008
September 22, 2008
Dear Isaac,
Yesterday Daddy and I made it to church. It had been a couple of weeks because of traveling and with Mommy being in the hospital last Sunday. We sang some great songs during worship time. I always try to sing loudly because I want you to hear the songs, too. I think some of the people around me may have thought I was a little weird, but that's okay. It's more important to me that you get to hear the beautiful songs, too.
During the afternoon we watched football. The Ravens won, which is a good thing. Tonight the Jets are playing, and I know Daddy is excited to watch the game with you. What I mean is that he loves to sit or lay on the couch with me feeling you move all around while watching the game. It's his way of being able to connect with you and to let you know that he's there, and that he loves you so much. Hopefully the Jets will do as well as the Ravens did.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
Yesterday Daddy and I made it to church. It had been a couple of weeks because of traveling and with Mommy being in the hospital last Sunday. We sang some great songs during worship time. I always try to sing loudly because I want you to hear the songs, too. I think some of the people around me may have thought I was a little weird, but that's okay. It's more important to me that you get to hear the beautiful songs, too.
During the afternoon we watched football. The Ravens won, which is a good thing. Tonight the Jets are playing, and I know Daddy is excited to watch the game with you. What I mean is that he loves to sit or lay on the couch with me feeling you move all around while watching the game. It's his way of being able to connect with you and to let you know that he's there, and that he loves you so much. Hopefully the Jets will do as well as the Ravens did.
I love you so much, Isaac.
Love,
Mommy
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