July 22, 2008

Dear Isaac,

Last night Daddy and I layed in bed for a while just talking to you. Like the last time we did that, Daddy would put his mouth right next to my tummy and talk to you, then put the side of his face down to see if you'd "answer." A few times you did with a little jab to his cheek. We both thought it was so sweet and really funny!

Isaac, I want you to know that there are still so many people praying for you and begging God for a miracle... that He would heal your little body and allow us to have years and years with you. Daddy and I pray for that every day because we just love you so much. I hope you know that we do. We try to let you know in every way we know how.

I love you, Isaac.

Love,
Mommy

July 21, 2008

Dear Isaac,

Last night we had some chocolate cake for Grandpa Gerry's birthday. You liked it. It was great because Aunt Jolene and Aunt Melinda got to feel you wiggle and kick. It was great for them to be able to "meet" you.

We had a long car ride home from New York today, and I know you must have been getting a little squished in there with all the sitting I was doing. Hopefully it was okay in there and still gave you plenty of room. I am sure, though, since you're growing so much that regardless of whether I am sitting or standing, that you're getting squished. Hopefully that means I'll get to feel your kicks and punches even more strongly in the weeks to come!

I love you so much, Isaac.

Love,
Mommy

July 20, 2008

Dear Isaac,

Yesterday Daddy and I spent a lot of time with Aunt Jolene, Aunt Melinda, Uncle Pearce, Grandpa Gerry and Betsy. We hung out by the pool and played in the water for a bit. It was nice to get to relax and to see them.

Last night was a hard night for Mommy. I had a long talk with God, asking Him why things aren't different, why He hasn't chosen to intervene and heal your little body, and why it seems like our time with you once you're born is going to be very, very short. It makes Mommy really sad and really angry because I want so much for you to be okay. I want to just make things better for you. But I can't. And I don't like that very much.

This morning I woke up with Daddy before he played golf, and then I just layed in bed for a while with my hands on my tummy feeling you wiggle. I just wanted to spend that time with you. I often wonder if you can tell when I do that...if you can feel my hands there. I hope you can. I hope you know that it's me trying to spend time with you in the only way I know how to.

I love you, Isaac.

Love,
Mommy

July 19, 2008

Dear Isaac,

Yesterday we had a doctor's appointment and we got to hear your heartbeat. I loved it. It was a little hard for the nurse to find it, perhaps because of your positioning. Your heart was beating so strong at 160 beats per minute. It makes me so glad to know that your heart is healthy.

After the appointment, Mommy and Daddy traveled up to New York to visit with Daddy's family. On the way, pretty far from home, we broke down. We had to have the car towed and then repaired. The lady at the car shop noticed my tummy and asked all about you. I love being able to talk about you... what mom isn't excited to talk about her child? I am so proud of you.

I love you, Isaac.

Love,
Mommy

July 18, 2008

Dear Isaac,

Last night Daddy and I walked over to get ice cream. It was really hot out, and so we had to eat it pretty fast as we walked back home. I think you like mint chocolate chip ice cream... you were kicking like crazy after I ate it. Daddy says it's just the sugar, and he may be right; but I like to think you like mint chocolate chip ice cream.

Today we are driving to upstate New York to see Aunt Melinda, Aunt Jolene, Uncle Pearce, and Grandpa Gerry. It's a long drive, and I know you don't like being squished when I am sitting down. Hopefully it won't bother you too much. I'll try to lay back for a little bit so that you have some room.

Before we leave, we're also going to meet with the doctor. I will get to hear your heartbeat today. I love that. I love knowing that you're still alive and well in there. We're going to talk about your delivery, too. Mommy is a little scared about that, but I know that it means that I will get to hold you and kiss your sweet little face.

I love you, Isaac.

Love,
Mommy

July 17, 2008

Dear Isaac,

Last night they had fireworks at the carnival, and you could see and hear them so clearly from the back porch. My favorite ones were the gold ones that exploded in a circle and then sparkled as they slowly trickled down. I stood there watching the whole thing, wondering if you could hear the loud booms and wishing you could see all of the beautiful colors and designs. I think maybe you heard the booms because every time a really loud one happened you kicked me.

I think about you constantly, Isaac, and I pray for you all the time. Sometimes Mommy doesn't know what to pray for for you. I want so badly for your little body to be okay and for you to live a long life here with us, but I know that eternity with Jesus is far better than life here. I just want you to know how much I love you, and that you'll always be a part of our family. You'll always be our first born, the first grandchild of my parents, and hopefully one day a big brother.

I love you, Isaac.

Love,
Mommy

July 16, 2008

Dear Isaac,

You were quite the wiggler last night... much more than usual. It was so fun. Daddy came and tried talking right into my tummy to see if you could hear him. He would say hello to you and then put his ear and the side of his face on my tummy to see if you would respond. You did a couple of times, but I think he was hoping for a swift kick to the cheek. I love it that he did that... he really wants you to know his voice and to know him.

I woke up this morning to you moving all around, too. It's a great way to start my day because it reminds me that you're there and that God has given me wone more day with you. I wish I knew that there would be hundreds... thousands, even... but I am grateful for just one more. You are so precious to us.

I love you, Isaac.

Love,
Mommy